I've done the blog before and I've always enjoyed it.  I have different hopes for this one however. Hopes that are high but ones I don't believe are unreasonable or impossible. And this new year is about realizing dreams and dreams don't come true when all the candles are blown out but require a bit of work on the part of the dreamer. 


I've come to a place in my life where I feel stuck. Maybe it's odd for me to be feeling this or maybe it's normal. I'm not unhappy, don't get me wrong but I long to feel joy and peace and happiness in every day, to appreciate each breath I take and the little things that are often forgotten. I want to wake up each morning with high hopes and live each day to the fullest. I want to revel in the beauty that is the human life, the human soul. And I don't want to keep it to myself, I want to share it. 


Not only do I want to enjoy life, but I want to enjoy me. At my age, I figure it's time to understand myself, to know what I want, what I love, what makes me happy, what makes me sad and to use that understanding to deepen my relationship with the world and the people around me.  What does it mean to be me? How can I ever love and understand fully those I care about if I'm unable to do the same for myself? 


I don't consider this a crisis or a problem, it's a challenge, a challenge for me to live my life differently, better, fuller.  I don't want to wake up one morning and realize that life has passed me by. Its time to stop making plans and start living and I'm so excited!